An imagining of Anna on Good Friday
They’ve crucified him! Abba says it’s true. None of us could believe it when the word came this morning that he’d been taken to the Romans. We knew the Temple priests had it in for Jesus, but selling him out to the Romans?
The Romans may have a lot of fancy stuff compared to us Jews but they’re a brutal people. Can you imagine executing people by letting them linger in agony for hours, sometimes even days? Abba says our way – stoning – is pretty brutal too, but that’s at least quicker.
But why Jesus, who was so good? It just doesn’t make any sense to me. Jesus made me well when some people said I had already died. How could he let this happen? He was always so smart when the priests were testing him. Couldn’t he have gotten away somehow?
He was supposed to be our Messiah – our Savior. How can he save Israel if he’s dead?
But mostly, I just miss him. I can’t believe I’m never going to see him again. He told me to keep up with my writing – that it was important – but how can anything be important without him?
No one wants to talk to me. Everyone is hunkered down crying and scared. I tried to talk to Aunt Johanna. Someone said she and some other women went to watch – to be with Jesus as he was being killed. That makes them braver than a lot of the men around here. But she’s too upset to speak.
And now the Sabbath is coming and we can’t even do anything to honor his body until the day after. This day already feels like it’s lasted a year.
I know I won’t sleep tonight. My heart keeps flipping back and forth between anger and sadness. I really thought Jesus was going to make the world better. Where is God in all this? It feels like He’s not even here.
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