In honor of Valentine’s Day, a love poem
If I had known before,
What I know now,
Could I have saved myself
From loving you?
For loving you has cost me much;
More than I thought I had to spend.
I was so young and starry-eyed
When first we met;
To me all the world was a wonder,
And you were its King!
As the little girl in me, stretched into maturity,
I made other flirtations,
But these were only half-hearted affairs,
For I could never deny you.
When, at last, I looked straight into your eyes,
My womanly heart melted;
You were irresistible
And I wanted to be wholly yours.
If I had known then
What I know now,
Would I have saved myself
From loving you?
Your advances were full of gentleness,
But you have proved a demanding lover.
When I clasped the hand you reached out to me,
I did not know that you would lead me
Down barren trails of loneliness,
Through scary jungles of confusion,
Against crushing waves of rejection,
Across blank oceans of waiting.
I can’t say that you promised me
Ever-flowing fountains of ecstasy,
But I guess I expected life to run smoothly
Because I was with you.
I was so naïve.
But now I am not so naïve,
And I realize, at least in part,
The dear expense of your affection.
If I had known from the start,
What I know now,
Should I have saved myself
From loving you?
Yet,
Had I not spent it on you,
What could I have bought with my love?
You own the only storeroom
That preserves earth’s pleasures,
And your currency alone
Purchases the soul’s fulfillment.
The taste of your love
Has so tuned my palate,
I have no appetite
For counterfeit affection.
No, I may complain
That you have taxed my heart dearly,
But the revenue
Was sorely needed:
Projects of improvement
Already show progress,
And though the labor is hard,
You do not let go of my hand.
And so I wonder …
If I knew before,
What I know today
And what I will know tomorrow,
Could I have saved myself
For loving you?
But I am content
Not to know the answer.
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